Friday, May 16, 2014

real talk // a coffee date

i am linking up with Rachel and Madison today for a long distance coffee date! one of the best things about blogging is the community that exists here. so Rachel and Madison are hosting a link up for bloggers to have a virtual coffee date, get to know each other better, and send some encouragement through this blogging community. i think this is such a great idea & i'm so excited to take a part in it! 


my drink of choice when i go out for coffee is a chai latte with almond milk, please. on the regular, i drink my coffee black, but i like to get fun drinks when it's a sit down affair. if this coffee date was in the fall, i would have to get a pumpkin spice latte, though! i am not a huge fan of pumpkin, but there is something about pumpkin and espresso! 

i would opt for a cozy corner seat because i feel like it's easier to open up when you're not awkwardly sitting in the middle of everyone. #introvertlife  plus, the corner seats always have the best comfy chairs!

i would ask you how life has been treating you lately. how's your job? how's your family? but i'm not much for small talk, so that wouldn't last long. then i would ask you what you're struggling with. what is God teaching you lately? how are you seeing Him work in your life? 

then i would open up and tell you about my life. it's hard for me to open up with people unless i know them really well. but you've opened up and given me the push i needed to be able to be vulnerable with you. 

i would tell you my job is wearing me out right now. i love what i do and i love who i work with, but it is just overwhelming lately with this new system. i think i've worked 60 hour weeks for the past month and it is catching up with me. sometimes i feel that no one else understands how exhausted i am. and because of my work schedule these past few months, i feel like i've missed out on a lot because i just don't have the free time that i wish i had. BUT then i would tell you i know this is just a season. my job will always be busy, but it won't always be this busy. i know that in another two months or so everything will calm down. and also that i know there are things i can learn during this time as well. for instance, it's taught me how to prioritize better and it's taught me to really value the time i do have with family, friends, and my husband. it's taught me how important it is for me to lean on the Lord because i know i cannot get through each day without His strength. 

and while we're on the subject of my husband, i would tell you that our first anniversary is tomorrow. i would tell you i can't believe that we've already been married for a year! i would tell you that i love being married and it is such a blessing and joy. but i would also tell you that it isn't quite what i was expecting. i think a part of me was expecting that marriage would bring an ease of vulnerability. but i found out that it doesn't. vulnerability is hard and it's work and it always will be. it's something that we have to fight for every single day. but it's worth the fight. and it's necessary. i would also tell you that marriage is teaching me so much about my relationship with the Lord. it is showing me sin that exists in my life, and although it's hard i am so very grateful for it. 

i would also tell you that marriage isn't easy. i've heard people say they don't understand why some people claim marriage is hard, but i am here to tell you that it is sometimes. marriage in and of itself may not be hard, but life is hard and because of that marriage is hard. there are hard things you will go through. there are things you will face that you are not prepared for. but the important thing is how you work through them. the important thing is that you look to God FIRST before your spouse. the important thing is that you soak your marriage in prayer because you know that you can't do it on your own. the important thing is that you grow closer to the Lord together, and in turn grow closer to each other. 

we would realize we've been talking for hours and maybe we should head home and get some sleep. i'm getting on up there in age and i'm pretty much useless after 10pm. we would vocalize how much fun we had & that we should definitely do this again soon. we'd hug and head our separate ways, both a little richer. 

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22 comments:

  1. Happy Anniversary Robyn!!! So exciting, Praise the Lord he has carried you guys through year one. We celebrate our first year next week on the 25th! I have tears in my eyes as I read your words about vulnerability in marriage...it is such a struggle and fight. You took the words out of my mouth...so hard, but so worth it! It has been such a journey to navigate life with another person that can see you from all sides...and knows you fully. But such a joy! Thanks for linking up and sharing your heart with us. So grateful for this time with you!

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  2. Love this Robyn!


    I am sorry your job has been so crazy and busy. But, knowing sometimes that things only last a season, really does help! You can make it!
    Have such a special anniversary tomorrow! I am stoked for you guys, I hope there is lots of sweet remembering, dreaming, and just being thankful for the place that God has you in!
    Much love lady!
    Amy

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  3. I am definitely feeling you on the corner seat. I prefer to have my back against a wall if at all possible. I'm less self-conscious. Is that weird? I'm also an introvert so maybe that's it. Sorry to hear that work has been overwhelming. I'll be praying for you, pretty lady! ♥

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  4. I love this Robyn!! Especially the part about vulnerability in marriage! We've been married for nine months, and I am STILL learning that even though I've known Sean for four years! Learning how to be open about yourself yet still considerate of your husband is a challenge for me, especially as a woman! & that's awesome that the Lord is using your husband to sanctify you! It hurts but we would never grow without it!

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  5. I so agree! Vulnerability being so hard in marriage surprised the heck out of me. I thought it would be easy but I feel like it's so much harder because my husband's words mean more to me than anyone else so if he responds negatively to something I say it feels so much worse than it logically should, which I really did not expect to be true. I thought I was so tough until I got married and discovered I'm actually insanely sensitive.

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  6. Yep... marriage is work... but well worth it.
    I hope we'd take the conversation outside since Spring is coming :)

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  7. Vulnerability is hard in any state. I can't imagine how difficult it is in marriage, living, working beside, doing life with someone 24/7. I so appreciate when marrieds are honest because I have seen some of the ugly side of marriage in my life (not me; this girl is single) which makes me afraid. But when someone like you says it's SO hard but SO worth it. I can believe that. I can work with that. So thank you for encouraging me today and having a coffee date with me. I am praying for you.

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  8. Kendra EllsworthMay 16, 2014 at 2:43 PM

    Love this and I can SO relate to where you are in life! Our first anniversary is coming up the end of June and I'm almost shocked that it's already been a year! Marriage is hard but its completely worth it and so rewarding.. Thank you for sharing and i loved "meeting" you!

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  9. I love posts like this. I need to start doing them. and Happy Anniversary!!!

    http://hey-darlin.blogspot.com/

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  10. Christin EastmanMay 18, 2014 at 4:49 PM

    This is so great! We're recently married and are finding out that too! Amen sister! Congrats on your anniversary! ah such a huge milestone! Loved finding your blog on the link up! Thankful for your vulnerability! xox C from Quirky Anthems

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  11. thank you Rachel!!! (and a happy anniversary to you too!!) :) He definitely has carried us through! amen to that! i am so glad there is someone who is able to relate :) sometimes i feel like there's something wrong when marriage seems so hard, but i think it's like that for more people and maybe no one really talks about it a lot! you are right though - even though it's a struggle it is such a joy too! :)

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  12. thank you sweet friend! :) it definitely does help to just think of things as a season - knowing that it will pass soon! thank you for your kind words!! we had a great anniversary & trip! :) xoxo

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  13. no that is not weird Aimee!!! i feel the same way! :) or maybe we are just both weird! thank you for your prayers! you are such an encouraging friend! <3

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  14. thank you Beka! isn't is so crazy how you've been with someone for so long but it's still a challenge to allow them to fully know you?! it blows my mind sometimes because it seems so backwards! but it is so awesome how sanctifying marriage is & such a joy! :)

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  15. Kaitlin! yes! it seems almost not logical that it is so hard to open up to the person closest to you! but i also think it kinda makes sense - because that person has the power to build you up or tear you down like no one else! so it's kinda a defense mechanism in a way i guess! i am more sensitive than i ever thought too!

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  16. so worth it! :) and yes i agree - spring weather + coffee just go together :)

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  17. you are so right Nina! i think sometimes vulnerability is easier with people you aren't meaningfully connected with because you aren't around them enough. but in marriage when your spouse is always there - it's just harder! thank you so much for your words! i can relate to being afraid of marriage because of how a lot of marriages are - but it really is SO worth it! :) thank you for your prayers Nina!

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  18. thank you Kendra! :) i'm so glad someone else is in this stage in life as well! it is crazy how fast the first year went by - i wonder how fast the next ones will! i am so happy to have "met" you too! :)

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  19. you most definitely should! :) and thank you!! xoxo

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  20. thank you for your words Christin!! it is so neat to see how many newlyweds are finding out the same things! :)

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  21. p.s. i didn't see your blog link in your disqus profile - could you let me know your link? i would love to check out your blog! :)

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  22. p.s. i didn't see your link in your disqus profile - could you let me know your blog URL? i would love to check out your blog! :)

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