October 26th | Part 1
IN THE ULTRASOUND ROOM
I look up at the screen and see a lot of black. I'm not exactly sure what my insides are supposed to look like, so I really have no idea what I'm looking at. The nurse points out a few white spots on the screen and tells me that they are my kidney, appendix, etc. We think you have a cyst. I'm looking at your organs so I can compare their size to the cyst. That way we will know what we are working with. She pauses. I wouldn't worry. Cysts in girls your age are so common and most of the time they go away on their own. If they don't go away, sometimes pills will shrink them or we can take them out laparoscopically. No big deal.
There is a lot of black on the screen. I have a hunch that the nurse knows what all of that black means. I also have a hunch that she's not letting on because of the look of pure terror on my face. I've never been able to hide my emotions. My face has always betrayed me.
Maybe I will have better sight from another type of ultrasound. Wait, there are more than one type of ultrasound? Let me grab the wand and we can get started. She pauses. It looks painful, but I promise it's not. I did not sign up for this!
I still can't seem to find one of your ovaries. I think the cyst is blocking it. She tries to get a better angle, but she just can't find it.
We finish up and the doctor comes back into the room. We are going to refer you to a surgeon so you can discuss options of how to remove this cyst.
Surgery. I stammer. The nurse said that sometimes pills could help shrink them, can I try that?
I don't like the look on the doctor's face. That does work with some cysts. Unfortunately, yours is too large and will have to be surgically removed. It really is very common and you will be fine! I've made you an appointment with this surgeon at the Cancer Center. Don't be alarmed, it's just a precaution. With cysts, there is always the possibility of cancer so we have to be sure. I've made you an appointment for 1pm today. Do you have someone you can call to come get you? I don't think you should drive yourself or go to the appointment alone.
Yeah, I can call my dad.
Don't worry, you'll be all healed up for your wedding. This will be behind you and you'll be having babies before you know it!
Right this minute I'm supposed to be heading back to school to take a test, but instead I'm sitting here talking about cancer. No big deal.
This is only the beginning of what will become a whirlwind weekend.
[to be continued]