Monday, January 26, 2015

real talk | my story is beautiful

this was originally a guest post on Allison's blog as part of her You Are Beautiful series. every single post in the series is superb & you can read them all here!


in 1988, there was a little girl born with blonde hair, bright blue eyes, and a bouncy personality. as she began to grow, her hair darkened but she remained a little ball of energy. she would wake up with the sun & not slow down until it was dark. this earned her two nicknames - crack of dawn Robyn & Beebop.

this little girl loved to read & she would keep herself busy by setting up the playroom as a library and pretending to be the librarian. her family would even humor her & check out books. she loved playing outside, but she also loved reading. she loved the quiet.

as she entered middle school, she realized that not a lot of kids her age liked quiet. they loved to talk & they loved being around people all the time. she started to wonder if there was something wrong with her. she liked being around people, but she longed for time to herself. she started to feel like she didn't really fit in anywhere.


she had a handful of friends that were a lot like her & they understood. but she started to feel like most people didn't understand her. they viewed her as shy or weird because she would prefer to listen than to talk.

she loved observing others, taking things in, and reflecting on life. she loved analogies and the written word. she would rather read a book than watch a movie. she would rather write in her journal than go out with friends every night.

she started questioning why her personality was so different than other people. why couldn't she just fit in with other people? she wondered if she would ever feel normal or if she would feel awkward her entire life. she knew the Bible said that God created her in His image. but she wondered how that could be when Jesus drew people in, and all she seemed to do was push them away.


these questions stayed in the back of her mind as she continued to grow. she started college & she really started to take her faith as her own. she learned more about God, His character, His glory. she drew closer to him and those questions didn't seem as important anymore. she was starting to understand.

so God created man in His own image, in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them.
Genesis 1:27

and God saw everything that He had made, and behold, it was very good.
Genesis 1:31

every single person was made in God's image, including her. this meant that every personality was a personality that God possesses. God is so very complex & that's why people are very complex. it didn't matter to her anymore if she didn't feel like she fit in with people. she realized that's not what she had wanted all along anyways.


she realized that her priority should be fitting in with God. her priority was cultivating a relationship with Him and drawing closer to Him. that's the only way she could become who she was created to be.

today she still loves to read & she still loves quiet. she realizes this is because she has a quiet soul. she no longer views this as a flaw, instead she allows it to let her thrive. she sees Jesus through her introverted personality. she understands His need to withdraw to the garden.

but she also understands that her personality doesn't define who she is. her worth and her value are found in Christ & Christ alone. whenever these questions surface, she brings them to the Lord. she looks to Him to define who she really is. and that makes all the difference.


21 comments:

  1. Beautiful! So glad our identity is solely in HIM!

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  2. I love it, Robyn!!! :) Especially the bit about how you used to play librarian!

    I'm so glad that God made you YOU. That really does "make all the difference!"

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  3. Wow, I love this Robyn, thanks for sharing this part of your story!

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  4. You are beautiful and this post was beautifully written. I struggled with self-image on and off (and still do), but God graciously reminds me that I was created in His image, so how can I be anything but beautiful if I'm made after such a beautiful God?

    On another note, come join us for the Ladies Collective Linkup www.bestofbabylady.com....launching Wednesday February 4th at 6:00am. We'd love to have you there!

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  5. I definitely needed to see this today. Thank you so much for sharing!

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  6. I love love love this Robyn! so beautifully written!

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  7. This is an absolutely beautiful post, Robyn! I've always loved to read, too - I consider it quite the gift to appreciate some quiet time and a good book.

    Lisa | Two Martinis

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  8. thanks so much, Lisa! there is just something about reading that is so restful & a "recharge" in a way! :) thanks for sharing!!

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  9. thank you so much Sarah! :) it was overwhelming to try to write my story but the words just flowed :)

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  10. thank you so much, friend! it's something i'm still learning!

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  11. thank you so much! it is a struggle for a lot of people, but thankfully the Lord speaks louder! :) thanks for sharing your story!!

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  12. i am still learning to look solely in Him for my identity! :)

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  13. thank you Beth! i'm glad it resonated with you! it helped me to put words down as well! :)

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  14. thanks for your encouragement, Chantel! it was refreshing to get the words out! :)

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  15. thank you so much friend! you are always full of sweet words! haha yeah i was a real cool kid ;) i am glad God made you as YOU too! :)

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  16. Oh goodness this was so beautiful.

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  17. It's an amazing thing when a woman finds who she is IN Christ...nestled close and bathed by His glory. He is our difference in this world of trends and followers, because He beckons us close yet chooses to meet us where we are and not only lead but walk alongside reminding us of WHO we really are.

    Blessings,
    Dawn

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