Friday, December 30, 2016

scenes of Christmas

this year we don't live in the same town as our families, so we had to pack up all of our pets and travel to our hometown where we stayed for 11 days. it is a lot of work to transport rabbits, but it was fun to have them with us! we didn't really decorate for Christmas at our apartment because we knew we wouldn't be here for Christmas. but we did have adorable Christmas outfits for our pets so i took a few shots of those before we left. :)

we spent most of our break packing up & traveling every few days, but it was fun to be able to do a lot since i'm out on school break. we stayed at my parents house for a few days while i had to go to a dentist appointment. nothing says Christmas break like a trip to the dentist. ;) then we headed to Gatlinburg with Thomas's family for their annual Christmas trip. after Gatlinburg, we came back to my parents house and went from one family gathering to the next over Christmas Eve and Christmas. now we are finally back at our home for this season & i compiled these snapshots of our Christmas travels. it's fun to travel, but there's nothing like coming back home. :)

Monday, December 19, 2016

October 26th | Part 7

This story is written like fiction, but it is very true. It happened in October of 2012, so some of the details may be a little hazy to me but the story is as accurate as I recall. I wanted to have an account of the craziest thing that happened to me in my life thus far & thought it would be fun to write it in story form. This story is written in parts, so it will make more sense if you read from the beginning!

disclaimer: part six was written over a year ago! somehow i forgot about ever finishing this, so i'm finally posting part seven to this saga & ending it. it was amazing to see how awesome my school and work accommodated me for my month long recovery! also, this one is not written in story form, but like a recap.


i was so afraid of missing the semester and having to do it all over again in the spring right before our wedding. thankfully since i was only a month away from the end of the semester, my school worked it out so that i could finish my classes at home and graduate on time! i was only taking 2 actual classes, because my other 3 class slots were my internship that i had completed over the summer. so this was very good timing as well! had i been in 5 actual classes i probably wouldn't have been able to finish on time! i was also thankful that i had done my internship over the summer, because i would've missed too many hours during the semester to complete it. 

one of my classes was a computer class, so i was able to finish all of it online. the other class was concepts of chemistry, so that was a little more tricky. i had to finish a presentation, a test, a final exam, and 2 labs for that class. this is where it gets awesome, because my Chemistry teacher drove an hour to my house 3 different times to meet with me and let me present to her, take the test, review for the exam, and finish my labs! she had to bring all of the lab materials with her and we did them in my kitchen! talk about commitment to being a teacher! 

so with all of that i was able to finish my classes on time, and i was well enough to walk by the time my December graduation came along! my graduation was 6 weeks after the surgery, and thankfully i could walk with no pain across the stage! my chemistry teacher also found me after graduation and said congrats! it is funny because i hadn't spoken to her much before all of this happened, and that just goes to show how much teachers care about their students at that school. had i been at a large university, i'm not sure what would have happened.


at this time, i was working part-time for the company i got my first job after college at. since i was only working part time, i was able to be out for a month and come back without having to deal with short term disability or payroll headaches. my boss was very easy going and worked things out while i was gone, so i'm very thankful for that. since i was only working 2 days a week, i didn't have a full workload, so it was doable to have someone cover my work while i was out. then, he ended up hiring me on full time a few months after i got back! my department even sent me an edible arrangement while i was in the hospital which was super nice! 


i had looked into doing a semester abroad in either China or Uganda the semester that this all happened, but the finances didn't work out. i'm so glad they didn't because i couldn't imagine finding or going through all of this in another country away from all of my friends and family. it is also likely that i wouldn't have gone to a doctor in another country. so we probably wouldn't have found it and it may have burst since it was so large. talk about a scary experience!

additionally, my dad was in line for a trip to Germany with his department at work. he was one of the most senior engineers in the department, so he should have been chosen to go on the trip. but at the last minute another engineer was chosen to go. my dad was a little upset that he was not chosen. but looking back on it, he would've been gone during this entire ordeal leaving my mom to deal with everything. so, in retrospect it was actually a good thing that he was here while all of this happened!

last but not least, i got engaged a month before this monstrosity was found. so, had i been in China or Uganda i wouldn't have been getting engaged obviously. it really stinks that this thing happened right after getting engaged, but thankfully a very good chunk of the wedding plans were already done by the time i found out about the surgery, so we could stand to lose a month in the planning process. this is why it can be good to plan ahead & have a type A personality! ;)

right before graduation, the pathology report came back and it wasn't cancer! hallelujah! so it was just some weird alien baby growing inside me, but cancer free!

[the end]

Friday, December 16, 2016

this city

this is something i wrote back in July when we moved from my most favorite city. and yes i'm just now getting around to finishing it & posting because that is grad student life for ya ;)

this is the place where my life changed in the most profound ways.

there were really hard times & really really good times. and of course plenty of times in between.

this is where my heart first tasted of love. where my heart learned how much it is capable of loving. and also where my heart experienced deep sorrow. but also where it mended and grew stronger.

this is where my childhood ended & where my adult life began to blossom. this is where i learned to stay a kid, but this is also where i learned to grow up.

this is where i learned about friendship and what it took to be a good friend. this is where i began to realize that not all people stay with you - that some are only in your life for a short time. but even so that some will always stay with you no matter what, that some transcend time and distance.

this is where i began to learn that not everything is black and white. in this world there is plenty of gray. and even though God is absolute, there is plenty in this world that isn't. this is where i learned how important it is to have a discerning mind.

i learned a lot in this city, i grew a lot in this city. i learned that you can't always trust people or depend on them, but that you can always choose to love them and extend grace. there are plenty of times i chose wrong, and i learned it's okay to have regrets. being able to admit when you're wrong is a strength to have.

this is where i realized that i feel super deeply and that i must be extra careful with my heart. feeling deeply is both a blessing and a curse, the highest highs and the lowest lows. this is where my heart got bruised and calloused, but also where it was allowed to heal and soften.

this is the place where my life changed in the most profound ways.

Wednesday, December 14, 2016

a day in Stars Hollow

"once Luke Danes is in your life, he's in your life forever"

last week my friend from school came over & we had a Gilmore Girls: A Year in the Life watch party! i was sick the first time we planned the watch party, so we had to postpone it. but since i was sick i went ahead and watched it before she came over, cause i'm not a patient person! i was a little shocked the first time i watched it through, so i was glad to be able to process before we watched it together. 

i enjoyed it much more the second time through, because i knew what to expect. i feel like the first time you watch it you're waiting to see all of your favorite characters that you don't really appreciate everything that it is. the second time you pick up on more & you already know the ending so you can appreciate the journey to the ending. for instance, i hated the musical the first time through, but now it is one of my favorite parts! i have those songs stuck in my head all the time!

i've basically been living in Stars Hollow each night the last few months as me & Thomas worked our way through the entire series leading up to the revival. we would watch a few episodes each night before going to bed so i could wind down from all of the heavy reading for school. we worked our way through all semester just in time for A Year in the Life! 

Thomas & i haven't had cable throughout our marriage, so we just watch through the few tv shows we have on DVD and Gilmore Girls is one of our favorites. (other favorites include Heroes, 24, and The Big Bang Theory) we've actually watched through all 7 seasons of Gilmore Girls about 4 times in our almost 4 years of marriage & we just love it. 

A Year in the Life is in a lot of ways old, in a lot of ways new, and in all ways magical. after all, "what's there not to love about the town of Stars Hollow"? ;)

are you a Gilmore Girls fan? 
have you watched the revival yet? what was your reaction?

Monday, December 12, 2016

a bunny named Luna Lovegood

sadly in November, our sweet Finn passed away suddenly. he was only a year old so we were not prepared for this in the slightest. it happened right before the end of the semester so my stress levels were already pretty high and it hit really hard. 

we weren't planning on getting another bunny so soon, but we saw this bunny on a rescue's facebook page stating that she needed a forever home. we went to meet her and she was super sweet so we decided to adopt her since we had the room. she is a mini-lop and around the same age as Finn was, so we thought she would bond well with Albie since she had just started bonding with Finn

we kept up our Harry Potter naming tradition and named this little lady Luna Lovegood. we think the name fits her perfectly because she's got a bit of a spunky personality. she is very gentle and easy going, but has a personality of her own as well. she will jump on and off the couch by herself and run around the living room with our basset hound. her and the basset will run around each other and play, it's so adorable.

we were wondering how it would go adopting an older bunny, since we got Finn and Albie at such a young age, but Luna has done really well. she picked up on the litter box super fast and is getting comfortable around us and her new house. she has even met Albie once and they did really well. bonding rabbits is a process but they are showing promising signs so far. and we really love how chill Luna is, she's the perfect house bunny. we can let her hop around the living room freely while we are in there and she just flops around everywhere adorably. :) bunnies are seriously such fun pets!

Friday, December 09, 2016

writing | more to give

they said the sky's the limit
you can be who you want to be
but then they go and judge you
when they don't like what they see

so she learned to lock up her opinion
just stay quiet and coast by
for the other people always had
the final say of what and why

she took her spunk and sillyness
and locked them deep down inside
she learned how to completely be
another person on the outside

then one day it hit her
that she had forgotten who she was
she hadn't smiled in years
she never laughed, just because

slowly but surely she began to unfold
the box she buried deep within
carefully she unwrapped it
and out came the person she'd always been

it didn't take long for her to realize
that her past was no way to live
she had listened too much to other people
when she had so much more to give

Wednesday, December 07, 2016

grad school by the numbers | volume 1

so my first semester of graduate school has come & gone. and what kind of blogger would i be if i didn't do a recap? well, probably the kind of blogger who only blogs once a month. oh wait... ;)

grad school by the numbers | volume 1

semesters completed: 1 of 5

articles read: 64

chapters read: 63

total pages read: i'm sure i hit somewhere over 3,000 (see above)

episodes of gilmore girls watched: 153
(at nights we worked our way through every season in anticipation for A Year in the Life!)

papers written: 27

total pages written: 153

cups of coffee consumed: 134 (see above)

lunch dates with friends: 20

free lunches obtained: 4

classes taken: 5

length of classes in hours: 3

hours of internship: 174

walks around campus: 15

days where i did nothing school related: 3

things i learned: 562,654 (but for real!)

semesters remaining: 4