"what have i gotten myself into?" - i ask myself that question a lot lately. not in a negative way, more in a "i'm loving this career change/social work/grad school but MAN is it intensive" kind of way. ;)
grad school is everything i thought it would be - more than i thought it would be - and nothing like i thought it would be - all at the same time. i am enjoying this program and my internship so much. you know you are in the right major when the work is completely overwhelming and hard, but it is also very life-giving. and that's where i'm at. i'm exhausted and sleep deprived, my brain feels like it can't hold any more information, all i do is read and write papers, yet i know i'm exactly where i need to be.
social work is so different from accounting because it is a job and a career, but is is also very much who you are as a person as well. it's not just a job, it's a lifestyle. the work i do directly impacts peoples lives - and that is both really cool and really terrifying all at the same time. my internship this year has stretched and challenged me in so many ways - and not only am i a better social worker because of it, but i'm a better person because of it.
people say if you love your job, you never have to work a day in your life. i never understood that when i was a corporate accountant - because while i really enjoyed my job and loved working with numbers - i just didn't understand how that job could ever not feel like work. but with my social work internship i am understanding that saying. it really doesn't feel like work even though it is hard and tiring and frustrating - yet so rewarding.
i almost feel as if i am getting away with something - "you mean people will actually pay me just to be me?" social work utilizes so many of my talents and strengths in a way i never thought a job would. i am equally left brained and right brained, so i am very logical and analytical, but also creative and intuitive. somehow i am disorganized and organized at the same time - and all of these things together have served me well so far.
this second semester has been very intense that i honestly feel like the semester just started because i am not sure i have come up for air since it started. this week is spring break, and although i am working on five papers - it has been nice to slow down a bit and finally have a breather. this summer will be challenging in a different way as well. i am taking classes during the summer including a saturday class because it was the only time the class is offered.
i am also starting a job at my current internship the week after this semester ends. so i will be working two jobs during the summer and taking two classes - with a monday through saturday week. so although the days won't be quite as long, i will have a six day week. so all of my grand dreams of having some free time this summer are gone - but it is worth it to get these classes done and have less of a load next year. the summer job i was offered will also be great experience and a great opportunity to build my resume more, so i am looking forward to it!
this past month i interviewed for my top internship pick for next school year - and i was offered the internship this week! i accepted and am very excited that i am able to internship where i wanted to! i will be in a hospital learning medical social work and i'm over the moon about this opportunity! the internship is in the city that we moved from - i found out i can finish my advanced year classes from the satellite campus, so now that i got this internship i can finish my entire second year back home! we were always planning on moving back once i graduated, so now we are able to move back a year earlier than planned!
i started thinking about how it would make sense to do my last internship in the city that i will be living - and get connections for a job after i graduate. at first i thought i had to finish classes at the main campus, but then i found out that the satellite campus offers all of my specialization's advanced year classes - so yet again everything fell into place! we are excited to move back sooner than we imagined! we are still working all of the details out, but we will be nomad's again for a while once we move back because we want to take our time looking for a house! i can't believe in a little over a year, i will be graduating with my MSW, preparing for the licensing exam, and possibly settling into a new house!